It has been far too long since I last posted. Forgive my extended absence. My computer is on the brink of dying and often freezes and shuts down on me. This may be in fact the last blog post I submit on this laptop. I love technology, but sometimes it is more trouble than it's worth. You ALL know what I am talking about.
I recently posted a quote on my GoodandFaithfulServant Facebook Page regarding TRUST.
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Trust is not something that comes easily to me. In fact, it is sometime I struggle with daily. Trust requires an element of vulnerability that is terrifying. I like control and knowing what to expect. Surprises and change and I don't get along too well.
If you've read previous posts, you may have come across the one titled "God Changed the Dream I Dreamed." In this post, I described my struggle in finding a teaching job after graduating college with my degree in 2010. I was determined to teach despite innumerable mailed resumes and numerous failed interviews. I refused to accept the possibility that God was calling me somewhere other than teaching. After all, how could He allow me to spend 4 years of my life studying and learning a skill I was never actually going to use? I was the person banging at every closed door and desperately trying to pry open the windows too.
I am thick-headed; don't deny it-you're a bit stubborn too. It took being knocked down and shut out one too many times for me to FINALLY understand that God was NOT going to open up teaching opportunities despite my best efforts.
However, He didn't leave me down and out. He has placed wise and caring people in my life who call me out, hold me accountable, pick me up, and hold me when I am broken. God used a wonderful friend of mine to tell me to "stop moping, and start seeking God's will-not my own."
Long story short, another friend of mine suggested I look into Speech Pathology for my Masters. At first, I was resistant, but she encouraged me to at least check it out. After all, what did I have to lose?
Over a year later, I am starting my first two graduate courses for, you guessed it, Speech Pathology. The journey to this point has been long and difficult. God never let me slack in my need for Him. Every time I got just a bit too comfortable in my own abilities, He reminded me ONLY with Him are ALL THINGS POSSIBLE!
So, when you think you know best and attempt to tell God what to do, be prepared for Him to lovingly but firmly turn your world upside down. What we WANT is not always what God knows we NEED. I for one am beyond THANKFUL I am not left to my own devices. I shudder to consider what a mess my life would be.
FAITH=Not always UNDERSTANDING God's plan, but TRUSTING it nevertheless.
Let God radically transform you ONE BABY STEP AT A TIME!
Until Next Time! <3
